1 post from September 2008

I came across a journal page titled new years resolutions, which peaked my interest because I hadn't the vaguest recollection of making any. And let me tell you, I was thoroughly amused and a tad impressed. I had kept half of them ( never mind that i only made 4 to begin with) 

So I thought I would post an update and set some goals for the rest of the year.

In January I (apparently) posted the following resolutions.  The green text is from my original post. 

1. Live in the moment:  I seem to be constantly worried about tomorrow, next week, next month to the point where I rarely enjoy today or appreciate the possibilities.  I took this to heart, it was possibly the best thing I have ever done for myself.   I started appreciating my days for what they held,  instead of what they were missing.  I started finding joy in little moments of life, and I started laughing. A lot more. And the strangest thing happened.... For the first time in a long time I found genuine happiness, and for the first time that I can ever remember, I feel comfortable in my own skin.

2. Stop stressing over finances: Yes this is not the best situation financially, but its the situation I have for now. Usually money (or lack thereof in this case) doesn't bother me, but the past month or so I keep waking up in the middle of the night in a blind panic about the state of my checking account.  And when I do fall asleep several hours later, I spend the remainder of the night tossing, turning and grinding my teeth- something i have never done before. While I may have to spend the 28-30th of each money living off of spare change hidden in the cushions, so far I haven't been evicted or hungry.  I really need to let this financial anxiety go. I still have an occasional bought of anxiety over this one, because i am still seem to be consistently broke.  But i have stopped letting this completely stress me out they way that it used to. it is what it is, and i just make the best of what it is.

3. No More Internet Boys:  Ha! Are you supposed to be excited over failure?  Because I am so glad I didn't keep this resolution. Back in June I came across a myspace profile that I found very funny. As a bonus I found the owner of said space to be quite handsome!  Being my flirtatious self, I couldn't help but send him a friend request.  We started emailing each other and eventually met for lunch.  Through all of the waiting expectantly for a reply, and the butterflies when I had a message from him, I was fairly certain I was getting a little crush on this guy, but as soon as i had spent 5 minutes with him, I knew I had a huge crush and wanted to spend lots more time with him.  We went out to eat for my birthday.  He had read  this post and actually brought me these sweet flowers,but he ended up being the best birthday surprise I have ever received.  Simply put (although how I feel is far from simple) I am smitten with this man.  I am sure you will be reading lots more about him in the very near future.  

   

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

4. Get new ankles:

I was born with ridiculous feet. No arches, compacted achilles cord, and ankles that turn in.  On top of that i spent many years dancing and 0 years doing the foot exercises that were supposed to help.  As a result I had to wait until my late 20's to have surgery done to rebuild the foot ( something about the foots ability to keep changing until then.... I didn't pay much attention to the doctors, classic denial won out.)  However, I can no longer deny how badly my feet hurt at the end of the day, so the surgery must happen SOON.   But in order for the insurance to pay for this, I still have to loose a smidgen of weight.Yeah, maybe next year.  Still have to get in shape a little bit more, so it looks like maybe spring of next year might be more realistic here. 

 

Hmmm...this ended up being alot longer than i anticipated.  I'll save the rest of the year resolutions for the next post!